People are complicated, and that is a beautiful thing (if they are committed to telling the truth). There is nothing worse than feeling complex emotions but not being able to describe them in ways we feel that are properly represented. Instead of using generic words such as ‘sad’, ‘mad’, ‘hot’ – which sound distant and unjust on significant occasions, I have concocted terms I find describe well some of my previous experiences. Here are a few:
Ego death: Excruciating physical and psychological pain that comes from an instant let-go of hope and perceptions no longer warranted to exist. It is accompanied by disruptive reframing of associated experiences and people, ending in a positive transformation of one’s presuppositions of reality and identity. (close to a ‘heartbreak’, yet not exactly)
Negative psyche dichotomy: Two coexisting, contradicting realities of head and heart. Most likely to occur in relationships and the middle stage of employment, where one is unable to determine which side to take. (a real draining place to be)
Erotic catharsis: Feeling incredibly aroused after revealing repressed sexual feelings and receiving immediate reciprocation.
Familial hiccup: Feeling close family suddenly looks like a bunch of strangers because of failed communication and disagreement on values and morality. At worst followed by up to eight weeks of silence and dysfunctional interaction, in which one feels entitled and righteous.
Post-stress intuition disorder: Mind goes blind and at lost for words to intuit emotions and speak functionally (during conversations, interviews, talks, or presentations), due to extreme shock, nervousness, disappointment or sadness.
Siming Lan 